New Attitude has a new name, new lineup of speakers, and a new location. A lot is changing for 2009.

Didi Nordyke. Na 03.

When I attended my second New Attitude in 2003 I was in a pretty desperate state. I’d done all the right things - I believed Jesus died on the cross, I had been baptized, I’d powerfully encountered the Holy Spirit. But, I was also actively bulimic, quickly headed into self-injury, and person after person over the past 6 months had asked the question, “Didi, are you really saved?” The last straw was actually the first morning of the conference, the pastor from my church who’d come with us had expressed the same concern I was hearing from so many others “Are you really saved?”, but it was coupled with something I hadn’t heard before, he explained that repentance didn’t just mean “God I am sorry for my sin” and believing that every sin was under the blood of Christ - it was actually turning AWAY from my sin. I screamed mild obscenities at him as I fled back to my hotel room. (I am sure that convinced him of my salvation :grin:)

I started crying out to God, “Look, either I am saved and they are all insane or I am not saved and there is nothing I can do - I just want them to leave me alone, so I can live my life.” That evening was a first in Didi history - I couldn’t worship. I couldn’t sing. I couldn’t dance. The music was right, but I was so broken up inside I couldn’t enter in. I went into the bathroom trying to block it all out. An older single from my church saw me crying, but instead of drawing me out said “Hey, Josh is talking. We should go out there.” I looked at her aghast, “Lynn, it’s NEW ATTITUDE Josh is ALWAYS talking!” But she forced me out anyway.

The second I entered the room it was as if a deep fog enveloped me and I was the only one there. To this day I cannot tell you what Josh said, but right after Bob Kauflin got up with a prophetic song it was as if God were singing it to me and he sang, “You just wanna live your life, you want everyone to leave you alone, even Me (God).” and I broke down. I started to sob. I realized for the first time that being a Christian didn’t just mean getting into heaven - it meant living and loving and glorifying my savior with every day, every breath. I went back to my room and prayed for Jesus to not only be my savior, but my ruler, my master - I asked him to tell me what to do and I would obey. I have been far from perfect ever since, I am still often defiant and rebellious towards my savior, but something changed that night. Something I had been trying to fix through human relationships, my rebelliousness, and even good works, but had failed so utterly HE changed my heart and made me to love Him. And, that’s why I tell people I got saved at New Attitude 2003.